Senin, Desember 31, 2012

looonnngggggg year gonna end soon

this year gonna end in hours , so before I fall asleep, I wanna say :




thank's for amazing year! well take off to 2013 now!

Sabtu, November 24, 2012

SUPER17

heiheiheiheiiii I'm turning 17 at November 18th! aahhh and celebrate it at Whitebox Bistro and Deli, Menteng, Jakarta

garinggggzzzz!!!!! <3 td="td">



ashitlum


definitely X3

oh yes, OSIS 2011/2012




twins :D

:3

:3



sorry for those who can't take photos with me . . . I didn't mean to .. :( 

Rabu, November 14, 2012

007 reporting for duty

so from last Monday till this Wednesday is emotional days . hard days with exam, practice, course, assignment and many more . thank God that tomorrow is long weekend till next Monday.

I don't know for sure what's going on but we should keep this thing on .

anw, just watched skyfall, 007's brand new movie . awesome!!! four thumbs up!

007 reporting for duty







I say! His majesty’s old guard is back and that too with a bang. The longest running franchise in the history of cinema just got a major trophy film. Skyfall lives up to all the anticipation, excitement and promise. If Casino Royale changed the dynamics of Bond, Skyfall’s cemented them. This has all the trappings of a fancy spy thriller. It avoids all those gadgetry histrionics that were making Bond films seem rather juvenile. The film adds an artistic ethos to the man, his legacy and his story. Equal parts gritty and equal parts entertaining, Skyfall is one of the best Bond films ever.

By now the world knows Daniel Craig is less an Octopussy kind of Bond and more a Jason Bourne kind of spy. And it’s his grit and clay cold disposition that gets amplified in Skyfall. Bond’s assigned to a mission in Turkey where he’s tracking a list of international spies and their cover identities. Just like the recent trend of Bond films, the movie opens with a spectacular chase sequence across Istanbul. Essentially this high-octane chase is the simplest part of the film. There on, like a snow ball rolling on a jagged and rocky slope, the film picks up tiny pieces of matter all of which compound to give you a final product that’s remarkably dark, unpleasant but very detailed. Bond and M share a vibrant new dynamic. New characters are introduced in newer, edgier avatars. And just like that a character in the film says, “Old dog, new tricks.”

There is a fantastic scene between Bond and his nemesis Silva (Javier Bardem) where Bond is asked of his hobby and he replies, “resurrection”. In so many ways this film is a resurrection of the franchise. It’s evolved from being massy and light-hearted to being artistically gritty. And credit goes to director Sam Mendes for unleashing the artist within. He works magic with silhouettes. He creates a canvas with the contrast of neon lights and darkness. Bond is portrayed with more shades than his usual chauvinist and reckless self. There’s a new Q, there’s a new Moneypenny. There’s a lot of change in the setting, the Bond story. And this evolution is exciting.

MUST WATCH!!!

Jumat, November 09, 2012

welldone

hey, this week will be over soon, but the upcoming week is harder than this week. oh gosh!!!!
so, I've got another headache again tonight. bring me back to the life I used to be please!

I've been crying, I've been dying over this week and the problem just keep coming up . seriously I must stop writing before this page full with grammar-mistake

just can't wait to begin another chapter in my life!~!

XOXO

Minggu, November 04, 2012

SUPERDUPERSORRY

oh gosh! this week is too busy and I can't have time to blogging . quick post from my cold bedroom !

this week is absolutely crazy! the climax was yesterday at photobooth . team yearbook (including me) want make some money and we decided to make photobooth at our school closing cup ! and hell yeah! we make such a great effort! check at my instagram for several photos .

seriously , beside I don't have time, I'm too lazy too write down here . It's like "hey, no one will see this so bai bai"

Selasa, Oktober 23, 2012

kiiling.me.slowly

I've been sick for the past few days. Really, really sick. I just couldn't do anything with much focus. Had rehearsal yesterday for LED, and I couldn't really know what's going on. Body's aching, fever and slightly breathless. I'm lucky to found that my driver is waiting for me. Reached home, took some medicine and made myself a pack of ice to put on my forehead. Thank god that my fever is much better now.


No mood for school. I couldn't' understand what the new topic is all about. spin my head right round right round~ #eh. hah!


almost 1 month, I wonder how long will it be ? 




Minggu, Oktober 21, 2012

bumbambumbambimbumduar

ihihi so, i've just finished my exam! wohoo! okay the second week is better than the first one , thank God, the scores are quite great . still get frustated because of math . argh

jadi, dari agustus tiap minggu itu selalu ada birthday party and saya terlalu malassss untuk meng upload foto nya . you can check it out at my facebook or instagram.

duh still don't get any mood to back on blogging . #random post

last week, i've applied my self to an academy in Malaysia, called The One Academy and the announcement on April. Gosh. It takes a long time .

me - jane - sally (the birthday girl ) - sisca - vivi - aldo

Rabu, Oktober 17, 2012

I've got this friend

I've got this friend, I don't think you know him 
He's not much for words, he's hidden his heart away 
Oh, I've got this friend, a loveless romantic 
All that he really wants is someone to want him back 

Oh, if the right one came 
If the right one came along 
Oh, if the right one came along 

I've got this friend, I don't think you know her 
She sings a simple song that sounds a lot like his 
I've got this friend holding onto her heart 
Like it's a little secret, like it's all she's got to give 

Oh, if the right one came 
If the right one came along 
Oh, if the right one came along 

It'd be such a shame if they never meet 
She sounds lovely, he sounds right out of a dream 
If only, if only, if only 

Oh, if the right one came 
If the right one came along 
Oh, (I've got this friend) 
If the right one came 
If the right one came along 
Oh, (I've got this friend) 
If the right one came along

I've got this friend - The Civil Wars - Barton Hollow Album

Senin, Oktober 08, 2012

hartwik

Exams are coming really soon, and I must say that I'm a little nervous about it. Better start revising and be focus in class which I'm not doing it often. I'm tired, hence, I shall end it here. Looking forward to each single even though it turns out good or bad.

i can't

must listen! great song




how about build our friendship again?

hey bloggers! sorry for not posting . looking for my mood . i think it lost somewhere over the rainbow (?)
well, I've been pretty busy last week until next week because of school of course . and I'm on my way to university so, it makes me busier. I need to make 2 or more portfolio of my hand drawing . Gosh I'm bad at it .

well, I have no mood in writing right now, so catch me up on twitter, instagram, path, or line.



XOXO

Minggu, September 30, 2012

relaxing

Did I disappoint you or let you down ?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown ?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun
It may be over but it won't stop there
I am here for you, for my friend , if you'd only care
You touched my heart
You touched my soul
You changed my life and all my goals
and love is blind and that I knew when my heart was blinded by you
I've held your head, shared your dreams and shared your bed
I know you almost well
I know your smell
I've been addicted to you
Goodbye my friend
You have been the one for me

I am a dreamer
and when I wake
You can't break my spirit
and as you move on, 
remember me
remember us 
and all we used to be
I've seen you cry
I've seen you smile
I've watched sleeping for a while
I know your friends and you know mine
We've had our doubts but now we're fine
and I love you as my friend, I swear that's true
I cannot live without you
Goodbye my friend
let build the new one
'Cause i'm not gonna let you down
'Cause I can't live without you

this is so sad yet so beautiful.i could listen to this song for hours :'s so calm and relaxing..

- goodbye my lovers - James Blunt - with lil edit words -

Jumat, September 28, 2012

I'm not that innocent

Have you watched Glee S04 ? not yet ? please watch it really really soon because it was AWESOME!

so many new songs that they've covered and sounds good! my favourite are Chasing Pavement, New York State of Mind and Everytime and Oops I did it again on their new Eps Britney 2.0 and hell yeah the new episode "MAKEOVER" was AWESOME!!!! it's like kurt (chris) in vogue office doing musical video and rachel (lea) with brody (dean) sing great song like "A Change Will Do You Good" ! oh gosh i love love love loveee it!



there you go! go watch or listen to the song! and don't forget to this one


BEST!!!!!

keep catch me up on twitter or instagram! 

XOXO

Senin, September 24, 2012

noticeme

sorry for waiting too long . i didn't mean to

I still never know what to say. I still don't know how to get out of bed half time. It's not pretty.
I whisper you secrets, I am still looking to be saved
Sometimes I am so weak, sometimes I am so strong,
here you go, I'll give you everything.
my heart is ugly, but it could be all yours

say hello to me please or reply my hello with smile ... like old times :)

Jumat, September 21, 2012

chance

please give right signal!!!!! do you in love with someone else ? because everytime I try to fly I fall without my wings. hope you understand that

You’re perfect. Maybe a little bit too perfect for me.

Longing for a hug has never made me feel like this before. It just seems to me incredibly pathetic to put a smile upon my face just by remembering her full name. To see those letters standing one behind another composing the word I love to see the most seems to give my heart a new rhythm, a new beating compass, something faster than anything I’ve ever seen. And I couldn’t feel any sillier than I already do, especially because all of these emotions are just so not meant to be felt.


I just feel like the clock’s ticking, I’m frozen in time and I can’t do anything to make this ever work. My hands are tied, and it’s not like we can risk it all over a feeling which may go away somewhere between ‘Hello’ and ‘Goodbye’. Though I'm sure this feeling's not going anywhere.

The worst is not being able to say that. I gotta keep it to myself, all these crazy emotions that keep driving me insane at night. I’d never risk losing her friendship over a stupid misplaced ‘I like you and I want to know if you like me too’. Sometimes it hurts me knowing that if I keep talking to her I’ll never be free of this desire of being with her, being by her side.

And I really wouldn’t be surprised to find out I love her.

As a matter of fact, I already do.





Selasa, September 18, 2012

take it or leave it

hate me because i'm not like your other friends ?
fine . just take it or leave it
hate me because i can't go out with you like your other friends ?
fine . just take it or leave it
hate me because i can't sleep over in someone house with you like your other friends ?
fine . just take it or leave it
hate me because ...... well stop! stop compare me with your others friends
take it or leave it darl! take me as your friend or leave it as your enemy.
this is me. you know my dark side . accept me as your friend .... if you are my friend

remember, ego can kill you . . and boo ya, I'm not who you think I am!

Sabtu, September 15, 2012

YES / NO

I'm in love with you and I don't even know what to do with it.
I'm in love with you because your shit's all messed up, and so is mine.


should I give up ? or should I just keep on chasing pavements ? what should I do ?
I think my mind is true . just found that you in love with someone else, you have more respect to him.
I know that i mustn't stop, but chasing something invisible, for what ?

confused. tell me the way!


XOXO

Sabtu, September 08, 2012

hihi

hi blog . i"m so sorry for forget you (again) . actually i'm not forget, i'm just too busy with exams, homeworks, tasks and other things. Gosh this year is the hardest year in my life i think .

well, i'm focusing in my major subject, and my work on being an invitation designer . kill me softlyyyyyy

i think, i'll post my love poem start from last month till i get her #ups gahahahaa so for my daily routine you can follow me on twitter , on instagram for photo(s) .

upsy time to study ... psstt i'm studying grammar now for fix my words on this blog . hahaha see ya!

XOXO

hope

Am I a horrible person?

I was happy with our relationship before because I knew you liked me more than I liked you. I had the power. I was grateful for the fact that if you changed your mind and wanted to back out, I would not be crushed like I have been in the past. I knew that I could be adored by you without even having to try. I liked you because of the attention you gave me, and the lack of effort I had to make. It was so easy. 

But petty weeks turned into great months and I found that I have fallen for you. I love your crazy hair. I love your effortless optimism. I love how you are so self-assured, but also the least cocky person I know. I love that you trust me with your heart, even though it has been tossed aside in the past. I wish it was still so easy. 

I pray to god that you are a better person than I am. I hope that you don't realize that I relinquished all my power to you. You now have that sovereignty that I was so fond of. You have the potential to break me, and I have never been so fucking terrified. I have been broken before so please please please be more responsible and kind with my heart than I was with yours. 

It doesn't have to be this power struggle. I know you trusted me, even when you shouldn't have. I hope I can trust you, even though I know I already should.

Senin, Agustus 20, 2012

you + me = perfect

I just realised, how small I feel when you aren't with me. How scared I am of everything, when I can't be with you, or when you turn away. How everything in my life means nothing at all anymore, when I can't share it with you. How alone I feel when you aren't here to understand my ways. How incomplete I am without you.. Everything is half. Or nothing. It's like a big gap has been punched through my heart. A part is missing. You took it with you, the biggest part of my heart, and therefore because it's with you, I can not share it with anyone else anymore. It will always be with you. Nothing compares to you. Once you've had a taste of perfection. And you aren't even actually perfect. You have imperfections. But dear God, how I love all of them.

You are perfect to me. For me. With me. For I am not perfect either. I am still trying to not mess up. And to be as good as I can for you. Because even though when I was with you, it felt like I could never be with anyone else like I am with you, it still felt like I couldn't deserve you. In a good way. You are way up there for me. And I'm always trying to reach. To touch it. I don't just love you. I'm with you. Everything in me is you. Every memory I have. I don't know how to love without you. I don't know if I want to. Everything is gone. I wish I could say that I'm better off, but it feels like I won't ever meet anyone like you ever again. It feels like I won't ever love again like I did with you. Passionately. I didn't know I could feel this empty. But in a way it's addictive, because it makes me feel that what we had is... was real. That it wasn't just something. The memories are a drug to me and kill me.

I'm not a perfect person, there's so many things I wish I didn't do. I've found a reason for me to change who I used to be. A reason to start over new. haha. and you know what? the reason is you! 

Maybe I can't be the one that you want. but I keep trying my best. to. be. with. you. I know I'm far from your expectation. haa maybe I put my hopes too high. This lately I'm losing you . Where are you, girl ? i miss your crazy words and terrible story in stupid chat with you.

Back, please.


XOXO


holy-die

ho ho ho ho holiday aya ya ya aiya iya aiya iya #eh

nah, holiday is coming to town everybodeeeeeeeee! but have no idea where to go or what to do

mom and dad get fight yesterday until today . today is their sweet 18 anniversary but whyyyy oh whyy . c'mon fight on your anniversarry day ?!

anw, i'm reading Catching Fire, 2nd book of Hunger Games, so far so good, still continue-ing .
well, bye, wanna continue-ing again this "fire" book.

XOXO

Minggu, Agustus 12, 2012

Tera-ers

hihihi tera-ers celebrating icha and kabe's birthday!
Actually a little too late for surprising Icha ... but nevermind......nevermind i'll find someone like youuuuuuuuuuuu #eh
So, we told to Icha that we wanted to make a surprise for Kabe, but, we told Kabe that we wanted to make a surprise for Icha .. HA! William and I had so much fun bcause the plan went smoothly..

hehe afraid of smthng ? or lookin' for smthng ?

what r u lookin for cha ? lol

cha, i've told you, there's nothing there
Throw it to Icha!
auch!
auch!
Ups! Kabe time!

*rotate*
kabe with his cake

forgot to uploading Icha's cake ... later lah .. or check my instagram! @nikroez

PS: TODAY IS MY DAD'S BIRTHDAY!!!!


chocodevil  :9

Daddy!

blow ur candle dad!

today we had so much fun surprising him with surprise (?) 
okay, 0: 20 am
time to sleep, Good Night and Good Morning!


XOXO



Sabtu, Agustus 11, 2012

if i could......

I think the reason I can’t handle this is because I have so many regrets. If I could go back and do things over, I would change everything. From the start, I would tell you how much you meant to me. I would be honest. I’d tell you about how much I liked your hair and your funny, awkward little laugh and your silver-capped teeth and your wrinkly hands and the way you’d look at me so seriously, through your lashes, and make my stomach flip flop.

If I could do it over, I’d realized how much you appreciated me. How you truly cared about me, not just FOR me, but ABOUT me. You cared what I had to say. You cared if I was sad or a little lost.

I’m so sorry for everything.

-N to N-







XOXO

Selasa, Agustus 07, 2012

where have you been?!

missyousodamnmuchgirl

what happen ? you've been acting strange lately. this is not you . please don't change . 
am I doing something wrong ? it's like, you stay away from me. real different from 2-3 months ago ... 
I just want you close to me, where you can stay forever.
well, i don't know you'll read this or not, but please don't give me fake signal!


hey you! yes you!

From the first day I met you I was hooked.. there was no going back. That one "bump" changed my life. 

You always ask if I knew what I was getting myself into would I have stayed? The answer is: Yes, yes a million times. I loved you for who you are and nothing could of changed that. Distance and time, they don't matter. You've loved and accepted me for exactly who I am, you put up with my every flaw, each day I fall more and more in love with you. As you go and chase your dreams you will always have my heart. We're the dynamic duo. I am so proud of you. I love you bigger than the sky.

To everyone else: If you love her, don't let her go. Time is precious. and you know what? maybe she love you, it's okay, it's her right to love anybody. Let the little things go and enjoy the time you have. If she makes you feel loved each and everyday, if you can be yourself when you're with her, if she can make you laugh, if she is your best friend. Don't give up, in the end it's worth it all. Believe.


Sabtu, Agustus 04, 2012

afraid

i love your smile - cause it makes me happy
i love your hands - cause when you hold me i fell like i'm home
i love your voice - cause it lights up my whole day to hear it
i love your hugs - cause they makes me feel special
i love your chest - cause your heartbeat makes me calm

but most of all i love your eyes - cause when i look into them i see you

this describes exactly how i feel when i am with her (the girl who is everything; beautiful, nice, funny, sweet, understanding... just perfect, you know). how every touch makes my heart beat like crazy, but also how much they hurts because she isn't mine. how i want to stay in her hug forever- but can't. that i feel like i'm the only boy in the world when she smiles at me, and how it breaks my heart when we're apart. that everything i dream of is to share my life with her. i don't care if i'm not the first boy she ever loved. i just want that i'm the last.

i want to tell her exactly how i feel. i dream of that - but i am to shy and she is now one of my best best friend and soooo afraid that it will ruin everything. 

PS: Hey, i didn't mean to hurt you, Sorry









Kamis, Agustus 02, 2012

i want to tell you......

I want to tell you that I like you.
But I can't tell you that, can I?
I want to tell you to forget about him. 
He's a great guy, the best, and you two are good together,
but I still want to tell you to tell him 
to fuck off and to be with me.
I want to tell you
that since the moment I met you
I can't even get your face
out of my brain.
But I can't tell you that,
that all I want right now
in the world
is to take you away with me.
No him, no here, no this.
Just us.
Just for ONE day. You know?
But I can't tell you that.
I mean, you can't make me.
I mean, what kind
of a person would I be
if I went and told you
something like that?

XOXO 

continue....

sorry for lateeeee hehehe

WEEK 2
i went to retreat with church! all of my friends went there with their parents . but me ? just me and sister ......

my room... and there's connecting door to the other room

souvenir!


friends!

WEEK 3
went to Palembang for Choir at GKY Palembang , another branch of my church at Sumatra... and their church is so so so big! 

D-1 !!
Team Fidelis + ansamble GKY Kelapa Gading 
D-Day

@ Gelora Sriwijaya, Wisma Atlit

Amper Bridge at evening

WEEK 4
mossy and XIS1 meetup!
mossy ..... a week before the new student enter the school, they've like an orientation at school by OSIS
they divided into several groups and play game and others stuff and each group have their own name ... and this year name is from goddess 
so this is me and my team .. POSEIDON!
POSEIDON POSEIDON!

anddddddd XIS1 gathering finally this is happened!

XIS1

a-shit-lum!

actually, there's a pic of the real assylum but too lady to import the photos from phone . 

enough for today . bye

XOXO