Minggu, September 30, 2012

relaxing

Did I disappoint you or let you down ?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown ?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun
It may be over but it won't stop there
I am here for you, for my friend , if you'd only care
You touched my heart
You touched my soul
You changed my life and all my goals
and love is blind and that I knew when my heart was blinded by you
I've held your head, shared your dreams and shared your bed
I know you almost well
I know your smell
I've been addicted to you
Goodbye my friend
You have been the one for me

I am a dreamer
and when I wake
You can't break my spirit
and as you move on, 
remember me
remember us 
and all we used to be
I've seen you cry
I've seen you smile
I've watched sleeping for a while
I know your friends and you know mine
We've had our doubts but now we're fine
and I love you as my friend, I swear that's true
I cannot live without you
Goodbye my friend
let build the new one
'Cause i'm not gonna let you down
'Cause I can't live without you

this is so sad yet so beautiful.i could listen to this song for hours :'s so calm and relaxing..

- goodbye my lovers - James Blunt - with lil edit words -

Jumat, September 28, 2012

I'm not that innocent

Have you watched Glee S04 ? not yet ? please watch it really really soon because it was AWESOME!

so many new songs that they've covered and sounds good! my favourite are Chasing Pavement, New York State of Mind and Everytime and Oops I did it again on their new Eps Britney 2.0 and hell yeah the new episode "MAKEOVER" was AWESOME!!!! it's like kurt (chris) in vogue office doing musical video and rachel (lea) with brody (dean) sing great song like "A Change Will Do You Good" ! oh gosh i love love love loveee it!



there you go! go watch or listen to the song! and don't forget to this one


BEST!!!!!

keep catch me up on twitter or instagram! 

XOXO

Senin, September 24, 2012

noticeme

sorry for waiting too long . i didn't mean to

I still never know what to say. I still don't know how to get out of bed half time. It's not pretty.
I whisper you secrets, I am still looking to be saved
Sometimes I am so weak, sometimes I am so strong,
here you go, I'll give you everything.
my heart is ugly, but it could be all yours

say hello to me please or reply my hello with smile ... like old times :)

Jumat, September 21, 2012

chance

please give right signal!!!!! do you in love with someone else ? because everytime I try to fly I fall without my wings. hope you understand that

You’re perfect. Maybe a little bit too perfect for me.

Longing for a hug has never made me feel like this before. It just seems to me incredibly pathetic to put a smile upon my face just by remembering her full name. To see those letters standing one behind another composing the word I love to see the most seems to give my heart a new rhythm, a new beating compass, something faster than anything I’ve ever seen. And I couldn’t feel any sillier than I already do, especially because all of these emotions are just so not meant to be felt.


I just feel like the clock’s ticking, I’m frozen in time and I can’t do anything to make this ever work. My hands are tied, and it’s not like we can risk it all over a feeling which may go away somewhere between ‘Hello’ and ‘Goodbye’. Though I'm sure this feeling's not going anywhere.

The worst is not being able to say that. I gotta keep it to myself, all these crazy emotions that keep driving me insane at night. I’d never risk losing her friendship over a stupid misplaced ‘I like you and I want to know if you like me too’. Sometimes it hurts me knowing that if I keep talking to her I’ll never be free of this desire of being with her, being by her side.

And I really wouldn’t be surprised to find out I love her.

As a matter of fact, I already do.





Selasa, September 18, 2012

take it or leave it

hate me because i'm not like your other friends ?
fine . just take it or leave it
hate me because i can't go out with you like your other friends ?
fine . just take it or leave it
hate me because i can't sleep over in someone house with you like your other friends ?
fine . just take it or leave it
hate me because ...... well stop! stop compare me with your others friends
take it or leave it darl! take me as your friend or leave it as your enemy.
this is me. you know my dark side . accept me as your friend .... if you are my friend

remember, ego can kill you . . and boo ya, I'm not who you think I am!

Sabtu, September 15, 2012

YES / NO

I'm in love with you and I don't even know what to do with it.
I'm in love with you because your shit's all messed up, and so is mine.


should I give up ? or should I just keep on chasing pavements ? what should I do ?
I think my mind is true . just found that you in love with someone else, you have more respect to him.
I know that i mustn't stop, but chasing something invisible, for what ?

confused. tell me the way!


XOXO

Sabtu, September 08, 2012

hihi

hi blog . i"m so sorry for forget you (again) . actually i'm not forget, i'm just too busy with exams, homeworks, tasks and other things. Gosh this year is the hardest year in my life i think .

well, i'm focusing in my major subject, and my work on being an invitation designer . kill me softlyyyyyy

i think, i'll post my love poem start from last month till i get her #ups gahahahaa so for my daily routine you can follow me on twitter , on instagram for photo(s) .

upsy time to study ... psstt i'm studying grammar now for fix my words on this blog . hahaha see ya!

XOXO

hope

Am I a horrible person?

I was happy with our relationship before because I knew you liked me more than I liked you. I had the power. I was grateful for the fact that if you changed your mind and wanted to back out, I would not be crushed like I have been in the past. I knew that I could be adored by you without even having to try. I liked you because of the attention you gave me, and the lack of effort I had to make. It was so easy. 

But petty weeks turned into great months and I found that I have fallen for you. I love your crazy hair. I love your effortless optimism. I love how you are so self-assured, but also the least cocky person I know. I love that you trust me with your heart, even though it has been tossed aside in the past. I wish it was still so easy. 

I pray to god that you are a better person than I am. I hope that you don't realize that I relinquished all my power to you. You now have that sovereignty that I was so fond of. You have the potential to break me, and I have never been so fucking terrified. I have been broken before so please please please be more responsible and kind with my heart than I was with yours. 

It doesn't have to be this power struggle. I know you trusted me, even when you shouldn't have. I hope I can trust you, even though I know I already should.