afraid

i love your smile - cause it makes me happy
i love your hands - cause when you hold me i fell like i'm home
i love your voice - cause it lights up my whole day to hear it
i love your hugs - cause they makes me feel special
i love your chest - cause your heartbeat makes me calm

but most of all i love your eyes - cause when i look into them i see you

this describes exactly how i feel when i am with her (the girl who is everything; beautiful, nice, funny, sweet, understanding... just perfect, you know). how every touch makes my heart beat like crazy, but also how much they hurts because she isn't mine. how i want to stay in her hug forever- but can't. that i feel like i'm the only boy in the world when she smiles at me, and how it breaks my heart when we're apart. that everything i dream of is to share my life with her. i don't care if i'm not the first boy she ever loved. i just want that i'm the last.

i want to tell her exactly how i feel. i dream of that - but i am to shy and she is now one of my best best friend and soooo afraid that it will ruin everything. 

PS: Hey, i didn't mean to hurt you, Sorry

i want to tell you......

I want to tell you that I like you.

But I can't tell you that, can I?

I want to tell you to forget about him. 

He's a great guy, the best, and you two are good together,

but I still want to tell you to tell him 

to fuck off and to be with me.

I want to tell you

that since the moment I met you

I can't even get your face

out of my brain.

But I can't tell you that,

that all I want right now

in the world

is to take you away with me.

No him, no here, no this.

Just us.

Just for ONE day. You know?

But I can't tell you that.

I mean, you can't make me.

I mean, what kind

of a person would I be

if I went and told you

something like that?

XOXO 

continue....

sorry for lateeeee hehehe

WEEK 2
i went to retreat with church! all of my friends went there with their parents . but me ? just me and sister ......

my room... and there's connecting door to the other room

souvenir!

friends!

WEEK 3

went to Palembang for Choir at GKY Palembang , another branch of my church at Sumatra... and their church is so so so big! 

D-1 !!

Team Fidelis + ansamble GKY Kelapa Gading 

D-Day

@ Gelora Sriwijaya, Wisma Atlit

Amper Bridge at evening

WEEK 4

mossy and XIS1 meetup!

mossy ..... a week before the new student enter the school, they've like an orientation at school by OSIS

they divided into several groups and play game and others stuff and each group have their own name ... and this year name is from goddess 

so this is me and my team .. POSEIDON!

POSEIDON POSEIDON!

anddddddd XIS1 gathering finally this is happened!

XIS1

a-shit-lum!

actually, there's a pic of the real assylum but too lady to import the photos from phone . 

enough for today . bye

XOXO

promise

heiho, i'm back for fulfill my promise.

so, this holiday ( June - July ) is the busiest holiday i've ever had.

WEEK 1
Going to Singapore
have a trip to Singapore with my family on weekend

one of Singapore Mall

Science Center Singapore

the best Mc'D i've ever seen!

@ Mc'D Science Center Singapore

Inside Science Center Singapore

unique! 

Marina Bay Sands

see Singapore from Singapore Flyer ( taken by Sony using Sweep Panorama ) 

see Singapore from Singapore Flyer ( taken by Sony using Sweep Panorama )

lopelope

Esplanade! (taken by Sony using Sweep Panorama)

world's largest fountain @ Sun Tec Mall

time to go home

XOXO

hi! trying to post at noon but can't because i'm too busy #eh .....
so, after this deh , just came home, wanna take bath and have dinner, nah after that i'll back to you!

okay, this time i'm promise... gosh too much promise I've made at this blog . i'm gonna post at here minimum twice a week deh! so stay tune!!

XOXO

WOGH!

WOGH!

long time no post ... let me see... november 2011 ? oh Gosh , bad ... sorry blog i've been busy all night long!

so, tonight i came up with new header ! do you like it ? inspired from my own work-desk . gyahaha 

next post will be bunch(s) of story in my holiday! from story till photos! got a lot of photos and story, wanna write now but sadly can't because it's almost midnite and i gotta sleep! 

anw........

well okay, Garing is consist of 4 ppl, me, Lala, Jason and last Samantha (Sama-entah)!

Garing is a team that we made at 11 grade, but we're too busy and so, we don't have any picture together, and that picture taken at Samantha (Sama-entah) birthday party!

You can find Samantha at others picture. like at Best I ever Had and of course a-shit-lum!

PS: this is not photo(s) from my holiday that i'm talking abt. just want to share .

XOXO 

back again!

goodbye november! Hellooooo December!

December, It's supposed winter in here. but Indonesia just have 2 season.. but idk why, the weather just cold.. rainy .. aha aha

i just wondering, will you love me in December as you do in June ?
oh God, how did it get so late so soon ?
It's night before it's afternoon. but December is here before its June.
My godness how the time has flewn. I think i died for a while.

Well, my school hold an exam from November 30th 'till December 9th. and after that there will be an event called 'live-in" where we ( all of 11th grade ) will depatured to somewhere around Center Java, and live with the people out there.. it'll be fun.

maybe next post , if i don't get lazy, i'll post smthng abt my problem.. we'll see ha ha ha

okay bye from now! bless your soul!